No Depth

It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything. So long I didn’t think I would ever post again.

But, tonight my Spirit is heavy and I am burdened more than I have been in a long time.

I have been in a baby bubble, keeping myself out of touch with the outside world and all its problems. My sweet son recently turned 5 months old, and I guess it is time to venture out once again, but he is precious, adorable, and growing so fast I can hardly keep up and want to stay in this cocoon for as long as possible.

Yesterday, my baby bubble popped when I went to get my nails done for the first time in a long time. I was excited to get away for a bit and have some much needed “me time”. The drive to the salon felt like a vacation with no baby crying, or toddler asking for snacks every 5 seconds.

While sitting down with my favorite manicurist, she immediately began talking about current events, going over everything from ICE, to elections, to the recently released Epstein Files.

I admit, I knew shockingly little about the Epstein files and had done zero research on what they pertain, who is mentioned, dates, events, conversations, and so on. Like so many, I have watched the Epstein documentary on Netflix, so I believed I had a grasp of what was in the files, but even that documentary couldn’t prepare me for the landslide of information coming my way.

As I sat and listened to my sweet nail lady talk about the horrors that have been exposed, I found myself wanting to hide.

Hide from the ugly details.

Hide from the disgust of what happened on that island.

Hide from the depravity of humanity.

Hide from the reality that the details are out in the open, all over the Justice Department website, yet so little is being done about it.

When I got home, I stuffed my emotions and went about my day making dinner for my sweet two-year-old daughter, changing my precious 5-month-old son, cooking dinner, then going through our bath and bedtime routine.

It wasn’t until everyone else in the house, including my husband, went to bed, that I found I could hide no more.

The emotions hit me like a tidle wave and soon I was weeping on the floor of my living room. I felt the weight of the sin that has consumed our world come crashing down upon me. I saw the faces of the children taken, felt as if I could hear their cries, wondered what they must have felt, and how so many of them will never be heard from again.

How is this reality? How are crimes such as these happening in our society? How is it that the appalling details are out in the open with no apology or plan of action to hold the people responsible accountable for their demonic actions?

As I sit here and type these words I am struggling to find the right things to say that will not only encourage me, but anyone else feeling as if the darkness, which truly has no depth, is ever so swiftly flooding into our society, creeping into our schools, taking over our pulpits, and bombarding our television screens, radios, music stations, and podcasts.

I titled this post “No Depth” due to the fact the devils darkness has no end, that the evils will never stop and the demonic forces will continue to attempt to intervene in our lives day by day.

But, there is something else that has No Depth, no end, something so much bigger, greater, stronger, and more powerful than anything the devil could ever throw our way.

Our God, our Savior, our Provider, and our Protector – Jesus Christ.

As dark as the enemy is, God is brighter.

As evil as the enemy is, God is kinder.

As overwhelming as the enemy is, God is greater.

As powerful as the enemy is, God is stronger.

So, although I cannot “fix” this situation, or make sense of just how vile it really is, I know God can.

God can heal the hearts of the wounded. He can bring to light things that have been hidden for far too long, expose the evil that has crept into our world and made its home in our daily lives.

God can, and will, bring about vindication for these sins because there is no stopping the Father when He starts moving, and I believe He is on the move.

My prayer tonight is for vindication. I pray that good comes out of this devastatingly evil exposure and that the exposure keeps on coming.

I pray for strength to rise up within those that can truly DO SOMETHING about all of this, those in positions of power and prestiege. I pray that the Holy Spirit overwhelms them in such a way that they MUST speak up, must keep the fire burning and never let it fade.

I pray the prayers of people like you and me are heard in Heaven and angels are dispatched every second of every day to fight this evil and continue to expose, expose, expose.

And I pray for the victims, those who have been personally impacted by these terrors. I pray for strength to rise up within them, and they never give up the good fight of faith.

So, I guess this post is simply to anyone out there who is feeling lost, lonely, sad, and overwhelmed by all that is happening lately.

You are not alone. God hears you, He sees you, and He know the cries of your heart.

Change WILL come, exposer WILL continue, and vindication WILL be sent in the mighty name Jesus!

Amen.  

Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.
-Ephesians 5:11