What I Want

I don’t desire to be famous, but I do desire to be significant. I don’t care if the masses ever know my name, but I do care if the Kingdom knows it.

It doesn’t matter if people like me, but it means the world to me that the enemy trembles at the thought of me. It is nothing to me if I never pick up a sword in the physical, but it is everything to me that I carry one continuously in the spiritual. I don’t care if my voice is magical to the ear or my singing desirable to the people, but I need it to be powerful to the rival and commanding to the foe.

For, what would it gain me to win the whole world but lose my soul? What good would it do for those around me if they adore me but don’t actually know me? What healing would I be bringing into the world if all they know is a pretty smile and a lyrical laugh?

I don’t want to go Home at the end of this long journey and be remembered as being funny, beautiful or smart. I want to walk into the Kingdom and for the Spiritual to know I was a warrior, a fighter and an overcomer.

I want the Heavens to cheer for me and hell to hate me.

I want God to know I am His soldier and Satan to know I am his enemy.

I want the world to know I am immovable and Heaven to know I am usable.

I want Jesus to stand by me every moment of every day and the adversary to run out of my way.

I want the Holy Spirit to reside in me and the enemy to have no place around me.

I want to be feared in the spiritual, attuned to the supernatural, yet unknown in the physical.

I want to be a slave to the Gospel, but untamable and untouchable to the theories of man.

I want my name to be frequently used by my Father, even if it means it is never used by the world.

I want to be a General in God’s army, regardless if I get lost in the masses of the army made by men.

I want my life to be a love story written to my King, dedicated to my Savior, and hated by the those who stand against my Lord.

It doesn’t matter to me if the world ever knows who I am, but it means the world to me that my God knows me, and my enemy fears me.

“For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” -Mark 8:36

Author: Lydia Barbara

I am a woman standing on the Word, believing in its infallibility and knowing I am all that God says I am.

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