Your love consumes me, from the crown of my head to the souls of my feet. It is all around me in a physical way, like I’m in a room filled with breathable water. It makes me strong, capable and able. No, I do not always feel those things, but I know those things are with me, around me and in me.
You make me enough, you make me brave and bold. You make me beautiful and brilliant.
Your love pushes out all the doubts the world bombards me with and replaces them with abilities I didn’t know I had.
Your love for me is amazing. You took what was unable and made it capable. You took the broken places in me and filled the cracks with your strength.
I don’t pretend to always like you, but I can promise to always love you. I won’t always do everything right but I promise I will do my best. I may bend every once in a while but I know I could never turn from you completely because to turn from you would be the destruction of my soul, the ripping away of everything that is good and pure in my life, everything that makes me royal.
I give you my life, a life that at times makes absolutely no sense to me, yet I give it anyway and pray you will make something out of it that I could never create.
So, as I stand in this room filled with your presence, I inhale deeply and know that what you fill me with will flow out of me in a mighty way.
“God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved.” -Psalm 46:5
A Woman Standing 
I am at a loss for words @ “I do not pretend to always LIKE you”? Is this a conversation with the God who created you? I always LOVE your writings. But I must say, FOR ME, it is NOT MY place to LIKE God. It IS my place to be an obedient daughter to Him and “like”, FOR ME, is not even in the equation of it. If He can love me, even with my flaws, in a way that is eternal, what does MY LIKING him have to do with it all? Perhaps the trials and burdens of this life I many not like; but to “NOT ALWAYS LIKE HIM” is absurd and seemingly more about flesh, which God is not. As a woman and a daughter of a most high King, I ask you, does He even NEED you to like Him? As a fellow Christian I am sure you know that answer.
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Hi Debi-I doubt Jacob liked God while he was wrestling Him (Genesis 22:24) or David when he asked God why He had forsaken him (Psalm 22:1). I have been through many trials and tests in my life and sometimes don’t like God while I walk through them, but I will always LOVE Him and continue to walk regardless of how I feel.
-Lydia
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I believe each of us struggles w our demons in various ways. I cannot speak on behalf of those in the Bible who dealt w discomfort in their journey. Nobody enjoys that but I can honestly say that for me, personally, even though I have not enjoyed those times, I dug in and cried out to my God for favor and trusted His wisdom rather than not like him. I do not consider “like” an emotion I ever use w God. That relationship, for me, is at a different level than the one I have with my BFF. But again, we each handle our relationship w Him in our own way.
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I agree, we each have individual and personal relationships with Him, that is what makes it so beautiful!
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