There have been several moments in my life where I’ve wondered where God was. I’m not proud of these moments but I won’t lie and say I’m the perfect Christian or that I never doubt the Lord. The past several months have been difficult for me, spiritually and mentally. I work in Washington D.C., where I truly believe the battle is raging more-so than nearly anywhere in the world.
There is a spiritual heaviness residing over the city, something that is nearly palpable. It makes me sad to admit, but my Nation’s Capitol, although physically beautiful, has become dirty with the darkness we have allowed into the country. I say “we” because the church has allowed this to happen. We didn’t stand against evil when it knocked on our door because we feared what the masses would think, now we are dealing with the repercussions of opening the door rather than locking it and telling the enemy to leave.
The longer I’m in D.C. the more aware I become of the abnormal behavior we have made ordinary in our society: babies that survive botched abortions are allowed to sit in a corner and die, it’s un-politically correct to define one another by our genders, marriage is no longer a sacred covenant between a man and a woman, nationalism and patriotism are apparently evil and Israel steadily getting pushed away. We have demolished any form of normalcy and belittled all forms of morality.
So, as I sit on the metro every morning and make my way deeper into the city, I have found myself becoming more and more despaired for my country, for the Remnant that seems so few.
I recently took some time off work and came back to the home I grew up in. One morning, I sat in my living room and looked upon the Rocky Mountains. My heart was hurting for all I see in the world and my mind reeling with how we, the Remnant, were going to make any type of impact. Deep down, I’m ashamed to say, I even questioned if God had given up on us, if we were just too far gone for Him to be in the midst of. I wasn’t praying and I definitely wasn’t in a place where I thought I would hear anything from the Lord, but in the back of my mind, almost too quiet to catch, I heard, “I AM HERE.”
God is here, beside us and all around us. No, we don’t always feel Him, hear Him, see Him, or even believe in Him, but that doesn’t change the fact that He is still here, watching over His people and making a way where there seems to be no way.
I’m sure the Israelites wondered where God was when they were enslaved by the Egyptians, but all along He was preparing a way for Moses. I don’t doubt Joseph asked God over and over again where He was as He sat in prison month after month, never knowing that God was formulating a plan to promote him beyond his wildest dreams. I would assume David asked God where He was as he ran for his life for over a decade, and Esther as she fasted and prayed for the lives of every Jew, and Jonah as he threw himself over the side of the ship.
You see, in the midst of the darkest darkness, God is still here.
My favorite evangelist always said, “I am not moved by what I see, I am not moved by what I feel, I am moved only by what I believe.” -Smith Wigglesworth.
I believe that God is here, and He is about to make His move. He is formulating a plan to embolden the church, promote his people and reward the Remnant for standing strong against the rising tides.
So, today, regardless of what I see and what I feel, I am going to believe God is here and He is moving.
I am going to believe this country I love will see revival in the church, will see miracles and hear testimonies.
I believe that the evil that has infiltrated our politics will be revealed and that those in political power will begin to stand up for righteousness and stand against ungodliness, regardless of the repercussions.
I believe that we, you and I, are about to witness wonders in our lives because our God is here, He is among us and within us and He loves us enough to move a mountain and calm the storm.
If you are feeling downtrodden today remind yourself that your God is here, He has never left you and He will never leave you.
We will see revival and we will see a change.
Our God is here.
“But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee. For thou, Lord, will bless the righteous; with favor wilt thou compass him as with a shield.” -Psalms 5:11-12