My Lord, my God, I find myself needing to tell you something, something I don’t believe you hear enough: I love you.
I love you more with each day that passes. I love you more as I worship you. I love you more as I read your Word. I love you more as I get older and see your light piercing through the darkness that is trying to consume this world. I love you more as I walk through life, often not knowing where I’m walking but knowing you are the one leading the way.
God, you are it for me, do you know that? Do you know that if I don’t have you I have nothing? All this world has to offer is meaningless in comparison to a moment with you. No amount of riches, power, money, authority, beauty, fame could ever fulfill me like you do. The world could fall at my feet, hand me everything it has, and it would still never measure up to you.
For, in you is fullness of joy. In you is anticipation. In you is fulfilled dreams. In you is peace that surpasses all understanding. In you is the bliss that sets my heart on fire and the hope that fills my dreams. In you is everything, Lord.
I say all of this to say three simple words: I love you. We have overused these words but when I say them to you I mean them to their fullest. For to love means to sacrifice. To love often means to release, to give up. Jesus gave up his life for all of us, so, I release all of me to take on all of you. I let go of every selfish wish, every worldly dream, every superficial want and shallow desire. I hand over everything I thought was needed in my life in order to take on all that you know is necessary.
I know it won’t be easy but life with you, life beside the King and the Lord, the Savior and the Sacrifice, is never easy. How could it be easy to live a life walking in step with the One the World hates? So, it may not be easy, but oh how fulfilling! To know I am pleasing the holder of my heart and the savior of my soul. To know that I am doing what the Word tells me to do regardless of what the world says I should or shouldn’t do. To be the woman my God has called me to be, to speak the words the Holy Spirit tells me to speak, to live the life Jesus desires me to live…THAT is true joy.
My God, my King, my Savior, my everything and my all in all, I want you to know I love you with all of me, everything I’ve got I give to you. I will rejoice, I will worship, I will sing, I will dance, I will speak, I will preach, I will pray. I will be the woman you have created me to be and do everything you tell me to do. There is no barrier between you and I anymore because I am no longer standing in your way.
Come, sweep into this place and take control, take authority, take dominion, take out all that needs removing and replace it with your presence.
I love you God, I love you more than I could ever put into words, but I have done the best I can. Maybe, one day, I’ll be able to say all of this in the right way, pour out my heart in a psalmist way like David, but for now all I can say is three words.
I love you.
A Woman Standing 