While talking with a friend this morning about faith, words came out of my mouth I had never thought before:
“Faith is like giving birth.”
Even while the words left my lips I thought, “what the heck does that even mean?” God, fortunately, gave me clarity.
Most women, including myself, get to a point in the delivery room when they think, or say out loud in my case, I just can’t do this anymore!
Continue reading “Faith And Delivery”This morning, I received the link to a sermon of one of my clients preaching at a church near me with a comment on how good the teaching was.
This made me start thinking about my client and all I have seen “firsthand” while working for his ministry as a communications contractor. The more I thought about all I have seen, heard, witnessed, and experienced, the more astounded I became at how much God can do with one individual when that person lets go of all limitations and allows God to truly be all He can be in our lives.
In just 20 years, God took this man from an on the road preacher, visiting small mountain towns and hardly bringing in enough money to pay the bills, to a globally known teacher who gives away millions of dollars every year.
How? The man stopped placing limitations on the Lord.
Continue reading “Overwhelming”Last night, I became entangled with concerns for my company. One of our clients hasn’t been responding to emails, has missed meetings and hasn’t done a single thing we’ve asked of them in order to properly fulfill our contractual obligations. Payment is due Friday, but we haven’t received a reply to any of the three emails we’ve sent regarding their invoice.
As I thought about this while trying to fall asleep, my mind began to wander to other clients and soon thoughts of “what if” crept in. What if this client isn’t happy with the work we’ve provided, what if that client is frustrated with what we suggested they do, what if they decide not to extend their contract, what if my company falls apart…on and on my mind circled around all the things that could possibly go wrong. Pretty soon I was in such a state of anxiety I was nearly in tears and knew sleep wouldn’t come any time soon.
Right as I was about to reach for the lamp, the Lord said to me, “you aren’t casting your cares on me.”
Continue reading “Casting You Cares”Sometimes, God shows us just how powerful our words are and how important it is to cover every aspect of our lives in prayer.
Recently, my husband, who owns his own company, has had an awful experience with one of his sub-contractors. The project his company has been working on since May, one of the biggest projects they’ve done so far, was supposed to be finalized by June 21. Unfortunately, the sub-contractor was unable to provide the promised materials by the agreed upon date, so the project was pushed back 5 days, then 7, 10, 15…finally, the sub-contractor said they will not be able to provide the materials until sometime in August!
Clearly, this has caused stress for my husband, and myself. This project was more than just one single job, it was the beginning of multiple opportunities with the client, a very valuable, and influential, resource in the industry my husband works in. Since my husband is the primary contractor it’s his name on the line and his company is the one suffering and whose name has been tarnished. To be weeks late has truly been devastating.
Continue reading “The Power Of Our Words”We live in a very complex and confusing world. What was once right is now wrong and what was once truth is now purely opinion. Different perspectives and beliefs bombard us on all fronts making it difficult to know what to believe, say, think. This bombardment of false information and new “truths” has complicated things to such a degree it is truly overwhelming.
Lately, I have been faced with frustrations and disappointments, resulting in my attitude not being what it should be. I was shorter than usual and found myself getting annoyed with even the smallest things. I realized something was off but just didn’t know how to deal with it. One morning in prayer, I asked God to help me, for Him to send me to a verse that I could stand on and make my own. I opened my bible and sure enough God took me exactly where I needed to go. I began reading the verses He gave me every day and since then everything has been – simple.
My attitude is lighter, my perspective is cheerful and my overall view on life and all that is happening around me is far more optimistic.
Continue reading “Simple”I have had many conversations with different people who are all experiencing the same thing: a frustration with the waiting. Waiting for a career change, waiting for an answered prayer, waiting for their special someone, waiting for the door to open, waiting, waiting, waiting for God to move.
Yesterday, while talking to a friend about this topic, I said something that struck me so much that I have been thinking about it ever since:
Sometimes, God needs us to take another lap around the desert before we are ready to go into our promised land.
You see, God isn’t going to let us walk into a land we are not ready for, even though we may feel like we’ve been ready for a long time. The Israelites had a year long journey from Egypt to Canaan. God had them take a longer route in order to purge them of everything Egypt had tainted them with. When they arrived, Egypt was still very much in them, and they weren’t ready to enter. They felt ready, believed they were ready, wanted to go in and eat of the fruit, but God told them no, therefore they walked around the desert for an additional 40 years.
Continue reading “One More Lap”[Repost]
The weight of the Lord’s sacrifice does not escape me. I feel it now as I
sit here. He gave everything for us, for me, people He did not yet know but
already loved, loved enough to hand over the most important thing in not only
the world, but in all the universes and all the worlds, in all the ages and all
the eras.
When Adam and Eve fell, God watched the fall from Heaven, His heart falling
alongside them. How could they do it, He probably wondered. I
created them to be above all, yet they desired to be beneath. They want the
world more than they want me. In a moment, He made a plan, for there only
was one way to get humanity out of the problem they created for themselves.
It’s been over a year since I wrote anything. So much has happened since the last time I sat down to write in this blog, both in the world and in my own life.
Since my last post, I moved cross country for a job, got engaged, planned a wedding, moved back to DC, got married, started my own company, moved cross country (again), bought a house, and am just beginning to settle down a bit.
Sometimes, life seems to be passing at a pace I can hardly keep up with. My relationship with the Lord has often been put on the backburner throughout the past year. It seems there is just so much, too much, going on for me to know what to say to God when I sit down with Him in the morning.
My primary frustration and what has been increasingly bothering me is the spiritual attack on Truth.
Continue reading “Truth”I rid myself of all but you.
You are the only thing that can sustain me in this time of desperation and deep need.
I need you to flow through me, consume every bit of me and continually be with me.
I need to be filled from the bottom to the brim with you and you alone.
As the world turns from you I want to continually turn towards you, wherever you may be leading me.
I don’t care how unpopular it may be, I will always choose you. I don’t care how much the world belittles me, I will always choose you.
Continue reading “There Will Come A Day”I type a letter to the Lord, my fingers furiously flying over the keyboard: “Why, God? Why?” I write to Him.
Those words, the questions of why, I ask more than nearly any other. There are just so many things in my life I don’t understand, so many situations that make absolutely no sense to me at all. I’m in the middle of one right now, in this very moment even as I sit here and write these words.
While I frustratingly wrote to the Lord, a picture flashed through my mind: Joseph sitting in prison followed by the image of the Israelites walking through the desert. The Spirit then said to me:
“Everyone has their time in the desert. Many have to go through prison to fulfill their prophecies.” Continue reading “Desert, Prison, Promise”
The Lord is moving.
We may not always be able to see it, feel it, touch it, but He is on the move. God is often doing things behind the scenes that sometimes takes weeks, months, years to come to fruition, but all along, He is moving. Continue reading “He Is Moving”
There are so many Christians who have grown weary in their well doing. So many have prayed without ceasing, fasted regardless of difficulty and continued to be sensitive to the Spirit even when the world tells them to turn from Him. So many have continued to stand through exhaustion, fight through discouragement and rejoice in the midst of their continual battles.
It truly is incredible to witness the obedience of God’s Remnant.
Today, I feel the need to encourage those who are feeling the weight of the battles upon their shoulders and the weariness that has crept in on all sides: you will witness your miracle and live your breakthrough.
There are times in my life when I push against the Lord, when I become so frustrated with what is going on around me that I forget the power that is within me. I allow the world to quiet God’s voice and cloud my vision from seeing the Truth.
He has never failed me, yet sometimes I find myself still wondering if whatever current battle I’m in is the one I will lose, the time when my God just doesn’t step in.
This thought process does nothing but harm me and hinder me from doing what I am called to do. If He has never failed me, why would He start now? Continue reading “In The Darkness”
Several days ago, the Lord convicted me that the problem He and I were having (there was something like a wedge in our relationship) was that I wasn’t trusting Him, fully and completely.
Every time I complained, I wasn’t trusting Him.
Every time I asked Him “why”, I wasn’t trusting Him.
Every time I came to Him and begged; I wasn’t trusting Him.
I have felt like Thomas, needing to see the hands and the feet to believe, but little did I know that to continually need to see the proof in my timeframe was competing with my faith, the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not yet seen (Hebrews 11:1). The Lord told me that to constantly question the promises He has already told us in His Word, which we so often do as humans, is a form of disbelief.
I believe God’s people have been plagued by distrust, me being one of them. Continue reading “With All Thine Heart”
Positivity is something I’ve recently been battling to capture. It has eluded me like a fish I’m trying to catch with my hands in a large pond; right when I think I have hold of it, something comes along to scare it away.
I know I’m not alone with this particular fight. So many Christians are battling and waiting on the Lord for their victory, breakthrough, miracle, overflow, answer…so much waiting, which leads to discouragement.
I became curious and began researching scripture on waiting. As I read through the many, many verses regarding waiting upon the Lord, the Spirit said to me, “WAITING IS A FORM OF FAITH”. Continue reading “Within The Waiting”
A Woman Standing 