love – A Woman Standing

Love Like No Other

Six weeks ago, the greatest blessing of my life entered the world; my sweet baby girl.

Everyone tells you the love you have for a child is unlike any other, that the feeling is overwhelming and the emotions uncontrollable, but nothing can prepare you for the reality of experiencing that all-consuming love for the very first time.

In between the diaper changes, feedings, baths, spit ups, wardrobe swaps, and attempted sleep, the thought crossed my mind that I have no idea how God did it-how did He allow His Son, His lovely, perfect, beautiful, and harmless Son to sacrifice Himself for an undeserving world?

Casting You Cares

Last night, I became entangled with concerns for my company. One of our clients hasn’t been responding to emails, has missed meetings and hasn’t done a single thing we’ve asked of them in order to properly fulfill our contractual obligations. Payment is due Friday, but we haven’t received a reply to any of the three emails we’ve sent regarding their invoice.

As I thought about this while trying to fall asleep, my mind began to wander to other clients and soon thoughts of “what if” crept in. What if this client isn’t happy with the work we’ve provided, what if that client is frustrated with what we suggested they do, what if they decide not to extend their contract, what if my company falls apart…on and on my mind circled around all the things that could possibly go wrong. Pretty soon I was in such a state of anxiety I was nearly in tears and knew sleep wouldn’t come any time soon.

Right as I was about to reach for the lamp, the Lord said to me, “you aren’t casting your cares on me.”

Simple

We live in a very complex and confusing world. What was once right is now wrong and what was once truth is now purely opinion. Different perspectives and beliefs bombard us on all fronts making it difficult to know what to believe, say, think. This bombardment of false information and new “truths” has complicated things to such a degree it is truly overwhelming.

Lately, I have been faced with frustrations and disappointments, resulting in my attitude not being what it should be. I was shorter than usual and found myself getting annoyed with even the smallest things. I realized something was off but just didn’t know how to deal with it. One morning in prayer, I asked God to help me, for Him to send me to a verse that I could stand on and make my own. I opened my bible and sure enough God took me exactly where I needed to go. I began reading the verses He gave me every day and since then everything has been – simple.

My attitude is lighter, my perspective is cheerful and my overall view on life and all that is happening around me is far more optimistic.

It Is Finished

[Repost]

The weight of the Lord’s sacrifice does not escape me. I feel it now as I
sit here. He gave everything for us, for me, people He did not yet know but
already loved, loved enough to hand over the most important thing in not only
the world, but in all the universes and all the worlds, in all the ages and all
the eras.

When Adam and Eve fell, God watched the fall from Heaven, His heart falling
alongside them. How could they do it, He probably wondered. I
created them to be above all, yet they desired to be beneath. They want the
world more than they want me. In a moment, He made a plan, for there only
was one way to get humanity out of the problem they created for themselves.

Continue reading “It Is Finished”

Still Sent The Fire

“Yea, when they had made them a molten calf, and said, This is thy God that brought thee up out of Egypt, and had wrought great provocations; Yet thou in thy manifold mercies forsookest them not in the wilderness: the pillar of the cloud departed not from them by day, to lead them in the way; neither the pillar of fire by night, to shew them light, and the way wherein they should go.”

-Nehemiah 9:18-19

While reading this verse, a shock wave seemed to go through me. There is nothing we can do to make God stop perusing us.

The Lord did amazing things for Israel when He delivered them from Egypt. He tried, over and over, to prove His undying love for them. He saved them from slavery, fed them, nurtured them, clothed them, led them through the desert. The pillar of fire at night and cloud by day was, consistently, a physical manifestation of His allegiance to them. He gave them everything He had and did all He could to prove to them He was all they would ever need in order to fulfill their destiny, dreams and desires.

Yet, they denied Him, turned their backs on Him, betrayed Him. They bowed to false idols, claiming other gods as their savior, gave in to every lustful and sinful thought that crossed their minds and permitted themselves to forget, so quickly, all God had done for them.

But, even when they worshipped something other than Him, even when they turned to sin and sickness to fulfill them, even when they allowed satan to take over their camp, God still sent the fire by day and the cloud by night to guide them.

January 20, 2019

The Lord brought me to a Word He gave me at the beginning of 2019 during the last ‘blood moon’.

I have hesitated many times about sharing this Word, but with all that is happening around the world-the unrest, the riots, the anger, the politically charged atmosphere, COVID-19, the Supreme Court nomination, there is just so much to be praying for right now, which brought me to this Word.

I believe we are in unprecedented times. The Remnant is rising, the enemy battling.

Do not fear for the Lord is with us, goes before us and continually surrounds us. Always and forever.

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For The Remnant

At the end of June, while writing to the Lord about the confusion and chaos in the world, which has not left a single person untouched, He gave me a Word for the Remnant.

I am often hesitant to share publicly what He shares with me personally, but with so many weary, downtrodden and confused, I hope and pray the following Word is encouraging.

To all of you who are growing weary in your well doing, hold on just a little while longer, your God is on His way.

Hypocrisy At Its Finest

As someone who works for an organization focused on helping persecuted Christians around the world, I feel I have a platform to stand upon when I say: the immediate response to violence is NEVER violence.

The George Floyd killing is unacceptable, intolerable, aggressive and offensive. I have no idea how an individual can act in such a way towards someone else. In the simplest term, it was demonic.

I am in full support of peaceful protests. It is our right, as Americans, to assemble and object the things we feel passionate about. What happened to George Floyd needs to be discussed and the perpetrators absolutely need to be held accountable and changes made.

That being said, the violent riotous reaction that has been brought into American cities is also unacceptable, intolerable, aggressive and offensive.

Their Sacrifice

The weight of the Lord’s sacrifice does not escape me. I feel it now as I sit here. He gave everything for us, for me, people He did not yet know but already loved, loved enough to hand over the most important thing in not only the world, but in all the universes and all the worlds, in all the ages and all the eras.

When Adam and Eve fell, God watched the fall from Heaven, His heart falling alongside them. How could they do it, He probably wondered. I created them to be above all, yet they desired to be beneath. They want the world more than they want me. In a moment, He made a plan, for there only was one way to get humanity out of the problem they created for themselves.

Peace Be Still

Those are the words ringing in my ears.

As the waves crash around us, our Lord says Be Still

As the wind howls against us, our Lord says Be Still

As the rain beats upon us, our Lord says Be Still

My God

There are times in life when it seems as if the world is standing still and I’m no longer moving forward, as if everyone around me is living and I’m just existing, when every desire seems to remain unfulfilled and my prayers are going unheard.

In those moment, I must remind myself who my God is.

My God is the creator of the universe. He spoke the world into existence. He taught the sun how to shine, the wind how to sing and the trees how to dance.

My God formed man out of His own image because He believed man was worthy of being like Him, looking like Him, talking like Him, walking as He does and interacting as only His image could.

My God sees all things; therefore, He is never worried about the outcome because He knows how to get me to victory.

Victorious

I pray for God to place me on a path that cannot be stopped, slowed or hindered in any way by the enemy. I pray I am one with Him, that when He speaks, I react, without hesitation or thought.

I pray I am so in love with the Lord that to live a single moment without Him is simply unfathomable, to wake up and not speak to Him is unheard of and to not dwell in His presence every single day is unacceptable.

Close Your Eyes

There was a time in my life where everywhere I looked I only saw the chaos going on around me, in the physical and the spiritual. I came to the Lord and, while sitting in His silence, heard Him say;

“Close your eyes”

You Are Still God

Although the world seems to be filled with the unknown and the necessity to continually pray for one person or another then for myself, I know that regardless of the situation, you are still God.

You are still the God who spoke the world into existence, who breathed life into man then allowed man to reign.

You are still the God who parted the Red Sea, who made the wet ground dry and led the way through the waters.

You are still the God who tamed the lions, who sat with Daniel through the night.

You are still the God who softened the heart of a king, who walked with Esther into the throne room.

He Alone

I love you, Lord, that much I know so clearly. I love you with a love that overflows and is drenched in desire to please you, to live for you and you alone. I love you from the very deepest depth of my heart.

You and you alone make me sing with joy, every day I shall raise this voice to sing unto you.